I can't believe how huge I am getting. I know I will be gaining another 10 pounds in the next 2 months but it's worth it. I am really excited for next month. My grandparents will be back from New Brunswick so I will be able to visit them again. My father is going to visit from New Brunswick and helping renovate our upstairs. I am still trying to pick nursury colors. I have no clue of the sex so i am thinking that a teal blue and purple would be nice. I have star stickers that I am going to put the constalations up on the ceiling.

So far I have the following for the baby

- Crib
- Bedding
- Bassenet
- Change table
- Change pad
- Rocking Chair
- Play Pen
- Highchair
- Nursing Pillow
- Diaper Bag full of everthing
- Medical stuffs
- Stroller
- Car Seat
- Changing supplies and Diapers
- Swing
- Bath stuffs
- Clothing

I can't wait till the nursury is doone. The floor needs to be leveled them flooring put down and the room painted. Then I can do the really fun stuff like put up the decorations and the crib put together.

I feel like damaged goods. I feel liek noone really wants to be around me and that there is something wrong with me. Sometimes i just don't knwo what to do.

I got a really funny email from my father this morning. He is back in New Brunswick with my grandparents. My grandfather who can't hear and my grandmother who is blind now.

Hi dude, thought you might find this amusing.... For some reason channel 15 here comes in with the picture and the closed caption from one channel and the sound track from another..Right now dad is watching and mom is listening to two completely different shows and they don't realize it... Every once in awhile they make comments to each other about something that makes no sense to the other...

I hope things get better because stuff like this has been happening for a while. My grandmother handed my father a moldy sandwich she made the other day. I hate to find it amusing but one morning my father walked into the bathroom to find every corner covered in shaving cream. The mirror, the toilet, the sink, and floor. My grandmother went in to go use the washroom and incidentally sprayed the air freshener after she was done. I am happy that they are not alone now. My father should be able to cook and fix up the place a bit while he is there. They are both getting very old and my grandfather has contracted tuberculosis. At Least my father will be there for my Nanny to help around the house.